The Lust Lizard of Melancholy Cove

September 27, 2010 at 1:28 pm (Life)

Without being too sappy will say the wedding weekend was perfect. I thought I would read The Lust Lizard of Melancholy Cove by Christopher Moore on our honeymoon. It was hysterical! It was the perfect book to be reading in Cancun while sitting on the beach drinking margaritas 🙂

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Little Man Tate, Irises & Grandma

September 13, 2010 at 3:16 pm (Life) (, , )

I watch Biography this weekend on Jody Foster and they talked about this movie.  I remember watching and hearing the child describe paintings specifically Irises by Van Goh. I was taken with his description I fell in love with the painting and began to see other stories within the paint. This movie also began my long love affair with the flower iris and or course with Van Goh. Sadly, I did not get to plant my iris bulbs on Sunday instead I did some chores and drove to see my grandma. She is 93 and it was grandparents day. So I picked up a card and decided it was a good day to give her the handkerchief I had embroidered for her (I didn’t do the embroidery I aid to have it done). She is not doing well and I know in my heart she is holding on for me to make it thru to the wedding.

Grandma is an amazing woman. She had 12 children all very different. She has outlived 2 husbands and takes care of 1 of her children that was born with a disability. I will miss her when she is gone but I know she has lived a long and wonderful life and she will not leave this world until she is ready. She has touched many lives and her legacy her beauty will continue on thru her children, grandchildren and so on.  So my joy yesterday was spending some time with my grandma, the irises can wait another day.

More chores await at home  but I will find the joy.

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Make a Joyful Noise

September 10, 2010 at 9:38 am (Life) ()

So I need to work on me – my self esteem, my self confidence and bring some joy back to my life.

So here we go what brings me joy.

reading – theatre – dancing – bubble baths – flowers/plants – playing with animals – walking in the woods – making pies – making cookies – learning a craft – colours – good cup of tea – good glass of wine – watching movies – getting my nails done – getting a massage.

Today I will focus on colours. I need to bring more colour into my life and home so I am going to buy a rug (for the bathroom needed) or some pillows for the couch that have colour.

Tomorrow I am getting a massage.

Sunday I am planning on playing in my garden – I got some iris bulbs that are very colourful and need to plant them. And my holly bush needs a little love so this winter I will have loverly red berries.

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Shielded

September 9, 2010 at 3:03 pm (Life)

well now. I am not feeling the best but Bullet was pretty good so back to the world of Oz until honeymoon time. I was never close to many girls and so I went to a women’s college to try and understand relationships between women. The wedding process has shown me what I have known for many years I compartmentalize even my friends. To some I show one side of myself and to others something different and when those opposites meet it becomes very awkward. I don’t get angry and I don’t throw people away I just learn how much energy should be placed into maintaining communication. The wedding has shown me I have wasted some energy on some and need to refocus that energy onto others. Some days it’s enough to just get thru the day.

My husband to be thinks I will change once we are married or so he told me last night. This upset me but I was feeling too sick to really have this conversation with him. Yes some things will change – I want to have children – keyword – someday. Yes it is getting closer – I am 30 I want to have a life once they are gone, but I don’t want my kids to take over my life the way they did my mom’s. So I guess he and I have to have another conversation about this.

Also I have joked that our house is haunted because the cat seems to meow and get agitated at walls and the air. I mean it was built in the 1870’s and not alot but enough updates have been done. Well seems mr. thinks there is a chance too 🙂 he just hates to admit it!

also my face is seriously breaking out  i know a lot of it is stress but I mean really come on wedding and major pictures in 9 days its bad enough i was completely hung over for the bridal shower pictures lets hope my face clears for these ones!

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Bullet

September 2, 2010 at 12:10 pm (Books, Life)

I gave in to my addiction and bought Bullet by Laurel K Hamilton and a Kresley Cole book and a Christopher Moore book. I rationalized I need something to read on my honeymoon on the beach but in truth I need to escape this reality. No real thoughts yet on Bullet only read chapter 1 so far.

Watched – The Hurt Locker – the other night and all I can say is it is intense. I’m not usually one to enjoy war movies and I’m not sure I enjoyed this but it was not a waste of my time or money and I have recommended it to some friends. I have to hand in final counts today for the wedding stuff. I am going to schedule myself a massage, 2nd fitting for dress is Sat.

This whole wedding process has made me realize who my true friends are. I always knew I was not close to many girls and well this process has solidified it. but more to come on that later.  For now I keep repeating in my head:

I am slowly going crazy 1,2,3,4,5,6 switch – crazy going slowly am I 6,5,4,3,2,1, switch – I am slowly going crazy 1,2,3,4,5,6 switch – crazy going slowly am I 6,5,4,3,2,1, switch etc etc etc….

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Happy Birthday

September 1, 2010 at 9:44 am (Uncategorized)

Happy Birthday Dad.

You would have been 66 today, which means you would be retired and relaxing.

I hope where ever you are, you are relaxing, you earned it.

I love you and I miss you.

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